Lead AstrayI've been thinking of your story lately...As beautifully sad as it is,I'm beginning to see the faint holes--it doesn't-Fit-quite right...Like a misplaced puzzle piece.But who am I to say what's right?I only know half the battle, somaybemaybemaybeyou can show me the right pieces, butI just don'tknowanymore.
To Be AliveYour life is a thing of beauty ,God-given.You were made special,A strand of genes codedspecificallyFor you.You're made forSomething great,Something amazing.And though life may be aR o l l e r c o a s t e r ,You'll get such a rushOnce you've made it out... alive.
VictimI dared call myselfVictimDespite a loving familyPlethora of friendsAnd an army of believersWho made me face the day head-strongBecause I was bulliedDown:Shaken downBeaten downTorn downAnd up:Torn upBeaten upShaken up.I should have told them toShut upTo shut them down.Still...People do thisOnceTwiceThriceIn a lifetime at least;Moreover.They victimizeSelf-victimAnd be victimed.We can'tescapeThe prosecutors of lifeJustAvoid becoming them.
HaikuIt's a sad life whenThe one you love so deeplyWill never love you.
WIPMy writing seems to beOn a hit-or-miss basis.I try to hit a home runBut I can't quite touch the bases.Shameless,Everything I write is a frameless,Faceless piece of work I try to hang on a wallOf the room that's closing in on meAnd I can't think at all.Think?!Are you crazy?I can't even breathe I've written nothing lately,it's like my brain is on freeze!Why do problems like thisAlways seem to happen to me?
SoldierI am a soldier.I look out upon the faces of manywho see me and think hero,but I am anything but.I'm nothing but a pawn used"to serve and protect"...all I do is take the lives of the ignorant.They don't know any betterthan what the generation before them taughtand bullet after bulletthey fallto the groundlike broken toys worn out at the hands of a child.Slowly, slowlythey falland leave the lives they brought up at home.I am a soldier.
Daddy's GoneSummerIce cream, pavementMelting dreams down the grilleBlue eyes crying, a hug from MomBetterBut still leaving a sense of lossNo kind words can comfortNor ease the painLost love
StargazingThe stars are watching me tonight as I am gazing at them too, and imagine what it feels right beside the one I love; It's you.I picture you as one of them, illuminating from afar. I'll gaze at you, like precious gem, and dream that we will be at par.-smcl
Little messagesJust when another lonely day, starts to bring me down,I could be out shopping or just strolling around. I think of you of course, as I always do.My dearest love, I´m still missing you.My sadness, it begins to show,it is no use, the tears just flow.Then your spirit seems to talk to me,cos everywhere there´s a message I see.Messages on book covers, tell me" I should trust in me".even on some bath salts, says "don´t worry be happy"."Keep your chin up", "let your angel always be your guide".It´s then I know you´re still there for me, always by my side.The tears still flow, they always willbut now I know you are with me still.It brings me comfort, it picks me up.I know for sure, I´ll always have your love.Poetry by Suzanne karbach November 2014
And Everything Was BlueAnd everything was bluebut nothing was sadHow was I supposed to knowit would (almost) be you?It was just my mindrunning wildI just liked your jeansand your eyesAnd then you walkedthrough the doorsBarefoot andtaller than beforeIt was just my heartracing wildAnd I just liked your eyesand your smileThen I learned your ways:one hand on your hip, one knee bentthe face of a tired manand the veins of a kidThere's a roar behindyour tightrope lipsThat can disarm, strengthenor rip-a silence, a shynessa jazz 'n' blues aortathe definites before"...kinda", "...maybe", "...sorta"It was just my head and heartnot knowing what to doI just lovedbeing near youIt started with a flashof teeth toa tease, a salute,then everything was blue
I Failed YouSo many waysThis could have goneCountless daysWith a fake dawnIs this our fate?Disconnected togetherIs it too late?To cut the tetherI've failed youI wish I could atoneFor what I put you throughBut I’m already alone
Never Let goA few words is all I needI swore the knife wouldn't make me bleedBut I fear the time has come at lastFor me to return to the pastThe one place I cannot surviveAt least then I wasn't aliveThe last place I want to beAll I want is you with meI want nothing but your smiling faceThe one thing I desire is your embraceIs there any way to let me knowI swear I won’t let you go
I know.I see those moments that we were happy.Forever encaptured by that oaken framed glass.Those memories shall forever be locked away in my golden vault.But I think the issue is that we won't have them anymore.Our tea scented home would never be crowded with our aroma.Our burning fireplace won't be relit.Those chairs outside would never again be used.We both have a different road.One that has million of paths, and thousands of passages.But something is odd.Even though I know this..I still hope and crave for a day where I can hold onto you.I mourn and lament for that one moment where our hands would brush..But our lives are different.And I am letting go.
ExistI met you before we could driveI've liked you longer than you realiseI noticed you before fancy phonesI noticed you before fancy clothesI saw you when you said you were nothingI saw you when you were my everythingI was the one to say things will get betterWhen you were the one feeling under the weatherI was the one saying it'll be alrightWhen you text me in the dark of the nightI was the one who poured out my heartMy word were wasted so I turned them into artI met you before we could drinkI loved you more than you thinkI noticed you before you had moneyI noticed you before you called her 'Honey'I saw you when she cheated and liedI saw you through tears than you criedI was the one saying she's not worth your timeSecretly wishing that you were mineI was the one with a drunken kissStupidly hoping it could be more than thisBecause to me you exist.
The Savage Setting SunI stood upon a growling rockAmidst a rabid sea,And looked into the shutting eye.That glared right back at me.And as I stared into the eye,This savage setting sun,I could not help but shed a tearTo see its life was done.The glint of red upon the wavesDid slowly seem to slipBehind the gold horizon likeA fleeting funeral ship.And in a feral funeral chantThe ocean seemed to roar.I faintly heard the pipe of PanThat howled upon the shore.The wind joined in this symphony.It howled with dancing PanAnd echoed through the hallowed earthAnd through the hearts of man.The innocence of savagery,Barbaric songs of yoreLike wild Cuhullin criedAnd then were heard no more.The glowing eye was finally shut;The ship had finally goneFar, far away into the deepAnd silent great beyond.The waves then ceased their feral chant,And Pan his flute’s sweet trill;The wind then ceased it’s mighty howlAnd all the earth was still.I stood amidst this silence andI beat my throbb
BreezeHe set my soul on fireJust to watch it burn.It feels like it's happened again;It's like they're taking turns.Is that all that a man does,To hurt and hurt again?If so, Then no, I cannot goAnd bring myself to them.